I don't generally make new years resolutions. Not going to now, but I have started some changes here at home. I am often sick, usually from respiratory infections, like now. I'm just waiting out till Wednesday when I can make an appointment to see my Dr. I am allergic to dust mites, and their droppings. To touch any dust on my skin, will make me break out in hives. Keeping my place free of dust has been a challenge, because here, everyone is disabled.
My challenges, can, and do, often cause me delays in my plans as an artist. Sometimes, even slows me down with my drawings, and paintings. It's not a good way to be, when trying to reach my goals to sell my work. People that view my work, comment on them, if not here, elsewhere on the internet, and in my life away from the cyber world, do help to inspire me, to continue trying to get to that place where I can honestly say, I am an artist that successfully sells my work. I want to create until the day I leave this world, however long that may be. Sharing, and offering them up for sales, is not an easy task for me. Then there are the other challenges, they are outside of actually creating something, and keeping my websites maintained, and my constant works in progress. The websites I use for all of this, are also working to progress further, and they are a challenge to someone that is basically computer dumb with the inner workings that make a computer work, beyond following directions, and clicking on stuff, and typing. Typing is a challenge because of many past sprains, and arthritis. How many people are patient enough to handle someone with such challenges. Not very many.
I am always grateful for those of you that take the time to view my work, and most of all sticking with me even in my slow progress in adding new works, and offering them up for sales. Keeping my sites maintained, and progressing, moving forward with the cyber world of things. I find the advice to show my work locally means to get out, and about, and that just is not a way I can get out to the public. I do go out of my home, but it must be good day for me. If I had to meet a timeline to my work, or be at a certain place on certain days in order to show my work, and sell them, then I would fail at it miserably. I find it difficult to even see my mother whom is 2 hours drive away from me. I do it, but if I feel illness coming on, or my energy just isn't there, then of course, more delays.
This is part of my life as a disabled person. I think I have it pretty good considering, so many others I know, can't even type. I think communication progress is moving forward on that pretty good, but that points to yet another challenge. Money. Things that would help to progress for a person of my challenges, are often the most expensive. To me, having come this far, has been a miracle. Through friends, family, I have a way forward. It can't last, not without being able to actually generate money. Being able to do my work as an artist, has to eventually come to a place of selling. That is the pay off to all the hard work, and from those that have helped me to get this far.
The hope, wish, I have for myself, in 2013, is to have that pay off. The vilification to an artist, is after all, generating sales. I hope to be better organized, and able to meet the many challenges with help, or not. Also, to somehow be able to keep my place free of dust, so that I may maintain better health, with fewer days of illness.
Thank you, for those of you that have not given up on me. For those of you that continue to inspire me, and to not give up on myself.
May you all know the true meaning of a blessed life, in the new year.